Ignore...

Ignore...

It hurts when you are ignored. You feel still left alone when that special person doesn’t cherish you though the world praises you. Its hard to taste your own love when ignored.  When its pain for me it’s passing cloud for others but things are different when its from your own. Iam away in distance but i didn’t feel that till you ignored for few moments that to be cherished. Something special for me is just a thing for you and some sweet words from you is taken  away in vein ...

I know no one will understand this but still Ignore it...

Please.....

There is just one thing I would like to say one thing
  Before i close my eye and walk away...
There is just one thing I would like to say one thing
  Before is Iam far away from you
There is just one thing I would like to say one thing 
  Before i go into ashes
There is just one thing I would like to say one thing
  Before Iam nomore for anyone

Please dont forget me
Please dont regret me
Please dont hate me
Please dont doubt me
Please dont forget to remember me

Because I dont love anyone as I loved you
I dont remember anyony as i adored you
I kill myself to miss you in my life
Love you more than ever when  i fell in love
dono why i cry when you are happy on someones arms
dono why i love you blind
I know i wont get the warmth of you hugs
I know i wont get those kisses that drives me out
And days will go in pain from time till now


There is just one thing I would like to say one thing ........... Even if you dont think me please dont try to forget me love ................................

Rose

Rose............ my dear rose  ur symbol of  romance  when your single , happiness in bunches and sorrow in garland how many expressions do u have in you even after ur death . Never thought your pain when your clinched off your stem .forgive us because we cant express ourselves when we r alive but we kill u to express our feelings ....... what can i do???? here is a rose for you to show my sympathy on you

Love vs money in my life

Love Vs Money = ?

Life seems to be filled with desire . Its we the human cattle , filled with exceeding Dreams and desire in search of something which is nothing. I am one among the many but i regret that  i could have been  on the other side of what Iam .

       All I gained in this journey to the fuckin great britain is nothing to be frank, One thing i can pick out is some pictures portraying the false nature of present nature of life. I have undergone many turmoils inside me . It really hurts when my mom hides something from me and me doing the same ,thinking not to hurt each other and i dont know if at this point i lost the real nature of a son and mother . Funny everyone loose a great part of life thinking everyone is happy on the other end. Its like a illusion imagining the existence of everything out of nothing. Iv lost many pounds from my wallet and body yet fighting back to get it . Its this £ which stops me from going into my moms lap, my loves hug and some inexpensive affection. Has money under rated my love ,affection and humanity in me. I dont know to balance both . Will it be too late for me to take an action against my present considering past or am I loosing the present considering my future . No one knows but i would like to tell my loved once from this blog that Iam not happy here without u all and it cant be filled in my life without you all. Love you all

With  KESH

Email to god

I doubt on your existence ... People say ur great but no one knows how selfish you are .. You send some one gifted never bothering about the many in tears . Gifting the gifted and betraying  the needed is your hobby. Always choose someone to play by breaking their inner confidence and expecting to potray you for your inner happiness . Dont expect me to do it u greedy fellow . You stay in heaven to see me cry? I knew if your heaven is heavenly then no one will dare to live here in this hell and they would have queued up . People are ignorant to accept the truth that Earth is hell and you are the king. You took my Happiness, Pride, Love and peacefulness. Made me cry feel bad . You did not win unless Iam dead  .... You are a big DASH Mr GOD.

                                                                                                                   Yours Lovingly 

                                                                                                                    Looser Kesh 

Looser

Iam quite busy loosing everything ... even my image in the mirror taunts me,Hiding my tears makes my life like an island ... yes iam surrounded by tears in no man island. I might get rescued but iam afraid if thats a trap for a bigger test ..I am a hard hitter of failure which iam always used to be  but god doesnt realize that i need a break else i would break down fore ever .... They say god gives difficulties only to those who can handle it but if thats gods thoughts please understand i cant take more .. give me some time, very few minutes of happiness n smile else take me to hell ....i dont want heaven i dont mind hell but not this earth ...please dont label me as a looser for life.

Life

There where days when i was dreaming to become an CEO of a reputed company . It was my mother india who game me those wise and honorable  vision . Now bloody hell iam looking for a part time in a graveyard of my ambition and dreams........

Thank you Great Britain